June 10, 2011
It’s 7:15pm and I am still at work. I had a really hellish (is that a word?) work week and I have a long night ahead of me because there’s just so much I need to accomplish at work. My week consisted of a few highs (I was able to leave work on time a couple of days during the week) and a lot of lows (I didn’t have a babysitter for two days. My mother was sick. I had a lot of last minute fires at work.)
After some venting and a little bit of cursing (ok, a lot of cursing), I was able to handle the stress without letting it affect me as much as I used to. Up until last year, I was dealing with a lot of stress and pressure at work and I let it affect me in ways that just wasn’t cool for me mentally and physically. I would lose sleep, cry and I just wasn’t the person I wanted to be and I knew that I couldn’t continue that cycle.
Recently, I have been dealing with something that I haven’t shared here because it was hard for me, but I think I can now. A few weeks ago, a close cousin of mine passed away. It was a total shock for my family and I. I know death is obviously never expected but this truly just came out of know where. She was in her 40’s, not sick, vibrant and full of life and I just couldn’t comprehend how she could be gone so soon. It took me awhile to actually accept it, but there is a reason for everything that happens in life (my belief). So, while I will forever miss her, she will always live in my heart and in my memories of our time together.
Well, when she died, it profoundly changed me forever. For one, I promised to never let the stress of work or anything else affect me as bad as they used to. I promised myself to enjoy life more because life is simply too short. I know it’s cliché to say that and we all know life is short, but I want to make every day of my life memorable and I want to enjoy the things and the people that are important to me. I can’t let negativity and toxic situations get the best of me. It’s going to be hard but I am committed to working on this.
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? I have been thinking a lot about the things in life that I am grateful for and I wanted to share them with you. It helps to remind me of what life is really about. Sorry if this post is depressing, just having a moment and wanted to share with you.
I’m grateful for the big things in life:
1. My family. I don’t know what I would do without my daughter and my husband. They are truly my life.
2. My parents, sisters and the millions of extended family members I have. I love them with all my heart and
3. My health and well-being and that of my family
4. My home
5. My spirituality
6. Spending time with my daughter and watching her grow. It’s amazing.
7. My true friends
I’m grateful for the small things in life:
1. Peanut butter and bananas. My two favorite things.
2. A weekend where I do not have a lot of things to do
3. A seat on the train in the morning
4. My car. I have had her for about 10 years and she’s still holding on.
5. Getting 7 hours of sleep
6. Getting to work before everyone else
So, tell me, what are you grateful for? How has your week been so far?